Sweet September 12, I can’t believe it’s been two months since I’ve last written.
This hiatus from blogging – and it appears a few other things in my life – have made for an interesting summer. Filled with very little but yet feeling full. Days spent with my kids – running, laughing, playing, exploring, beaching, hiking, sunning, and more. Lazy afternoons. Quiet mornings. Taking a break from a lot of what I defined my life by prior to summer….a schedule that included pre planned meals, CrossFit classes, blogging, early morning power hours, and more. All of that went to the wayside in August and apparently into the first couple of weeks of September. I totally took a vacation from my life, other than committing to be in my office and with my kids.
And it was awesome.
That being said, I entered into September with a sense of renewal. Ready to dive back into a life that has more schedule. Like many parents, I crave the first day of school. I eagerly packed up their lunch boxes the night before. We set out the school clothes on their floors, ready to go. We walked together down to the school on the first day and after meeting their new teachers, with a wave of my hand and air kisses as the classroom doors closed, I had this intense sensation come over me.
This literally was me walking back home:
Maggie was at daycare. Caleigh and Blake were in grade three and senior kindergarten, respectively. I had five hours to myself with nothing to fill that time but whatever I wanted to do.
I hit up CrossFit for my first workout in almost a month (yes, ALMOST A MONTH). It hurt like hell. I was sore and I was tired but the sense of accomplishment after was worth every bead of sweat I left on the floor. I felt like I was getting back to being me.
I went home. I made some chai tea. I read from my latest book. I journaled. I walked around our new home, in silence, and marvelled at how perfect it was for our family. I sat on my back porch and just breathed it all in. I took stock of my summer. Yes, it had been amazing. Yes, it had been liberating. Yes, it had been “easier” to say no to the routine that I lived by.
But I was ready to get back at it. I gave myself a second New Years Resolution, except it falls in September. A September Resolution. I started a 21 day sugar detox and gave up all sugars, grains, and alcohol that had crept into my life this August. (I swear to you, the red wine is the hardest part.) I have been walking again regularly (tacking on more of a walk after getting the kids to school helps). I have been back at CrossFit four times, with the commitment back to three times a week as of next week. I’ve been up early again (not every morning, but at least 3 mornings a week) to renew my power hour. I feel like I’m getting back to being myself and committing to making myself a priority again.
And it feels awesome.