As I tucked my kids in to bed this evening, Caleigh reached up to give me a big hug and whispered “Happy early Mother’s Day, mama”. I had to take a moment. Hearing her sweet voice say those words made my heart swell and brought tears to my eyes. Just like that my seven year old found my weakness.
Being a mom.
It’s a weakness and a strength. I remember reading an interview with Angelina Jolie who was asked to reveal her biggest weakness. “My weaknesses are also my strengths. It’s my family – if anything ever happened to my family, it would break me.”
I could not agree more. My family can be my greatest strength and my greatest weakness. I have grown more as a human being as each of our three little beings came into our lives. They have taught me more than I ever could have imagined. They have forced me out of my comfort zone more times than I can count. My husband first, and my three kids second, are the best things to have ever happened to me in my life. I would literally move mountains to get to my family, help my family, and do whatever needed to be done for my family. I am stronger because of them.
As strong as I can be, at the same time I can fall apart at the smallest of things. Like when my daughter wraps her arms around my neck and whispers “Happy early Mother’s Day, mama”. These beautiful moments come out of nowhere and take me by surprise. I can be reduced to a puddle of pride as they score their first soccer goals. My heart aches when they come off the school bus in tears because of something one of their school mates said. I put on a brave face as I watch them take off around the corner on their bikes for their first time alone….and yet I know exactly how long it takes them to do our neighbourhood loop and if they are more than a minute late getting back, I’m ready to take off down the street to look for them.
All of these are life lessons for me, masquerading as lessons for my kids. Or maybe it’s the other way around. Being a Mom has given me more pride, joy, heartache, love, adventure, wonder, and zest for life. I would not give it up for anything in the world. I read once that children actually pick their parents before coming into the world. How lucky am I to have had these three amazing kids pick me as their mom and Tom as their dad.
Happy Mother’s Day to all of the other moms out there who are enjoying their day. Especially to my own mom, who has set such an incredible example as to how to be an awesome Mom. I look back at the things she sacrificed, the lessons she taught me, and support she gave….all of which she continues to do. I’m so grateful for her. And just writing out this blog post reminds me that I don’t tell her that enough. Thanks mom.
And thank you to Caleigh, Blake, and Maggie, who have given me the opportunity to be called a Mom. I hope that you know how much I love you, how much I appreciate you, and how grateful I am to have you in my life.